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`All the Light There Was' (Chapter I)
by Nancy Kricorian
http://www.armenianweekly.com/2013/03/08/all-the-light-there-was-chapter-i/
March 8, 2013
The Armenian Weekly features Chapter I of Nancy Kricorian's latest
novel, All the Light There Was. The novel will be released on March
12, 2013. All the Light There Was is the story of an Armenian's
family's struggle to survive the Nazi occupation of Paris in the
1940s. To pre-order, click here.
All the Light There Was is the story of an Armenian's family's
struggle to survive the Nazi occupation of Paris in the 1940s.
By the time my brother and I arrived at Donabedian's Market, our
mother was waiting on the sidewalk outside the shop, having
commandeered the grocer's wooden handcart, which was loaded with
gunnysacks of bulgur, net bags of onions, liter tins of olive oil,
along with miscellaneous brown paper parcels tied up with red string.
>From behind the plate glass window, Baron Donabedian waved to us as he
and his assistant were busily ringing ups sales. Half the
neighborhood's housewives had joined the effort to empty his shelves.
`Missak,' my mother said, `you and your sister take this cart home. I
have more errands to run. Maral, help your brother carry everything up
the stairs.'
My brother asked, `What's all this?'
My mother said, `Food.'
`Right,' he answered. `Are we starting a restaurant?'
`Don't be smart,' she said as she tugged at the sacks on the bottom,
checking that the pyramid of goods was securely settled on the cart.
`How did you pay?' I asked.
She shrugged. `The money in the cracker tin.'
My brother and I exchanged glances.
As long as I could remember, at the end of each week my mother had
climbed the step stool in our tiny kitchen to put coins and small
bills into the gold and red cracker tin on the top shelf of the
cupboard. She was saving to buy an electric sewing machine that would
replace the ancient and venerable Singer pedal machine she used to do
piecework as a vest maker. She had a newspaper advertisement showing
the different electric models, one mounted on extravagant marble, one
with an elegant sewing table, and the one she had set her heart on,
which was a simple black model on wood that came in a leather-covered
carrying case. She coveted the small electric light affixed to the
body of the machine.
My mother said briskly, `After you take everything upstairs, Missak,
you return the cart to Donabedian as soon as possible. Maral, put the
spices in the jars, and the sugar on the top shelf. The rest goes
wherever you and Auntie Shakeh find space.'
That was how our war began. It didn't start with blaring newspaper
headlines announcing a pending invasion, nor was it signaled by the
terrifying drone of warplanes overhead. Our war commenced that
afternoon when my mother stockpiled groceries so that, no matter what
the war might bring, her family would have something to eat.
***
As the trickle of people fleeing Paris turned into a torrent, my
father decided we would remain in our apartment in Belleville, an
eastern district that at the time still retained some of its character
as an outlying village. Schools across the city were closed and at the
order of the authorities, children were being bused out of town to
safety. Many stores were shuttered, and their owners loaded cars and
streamed towards the peripheral exits. My father wagered, however,
that staying where we had a roof over our heads and where he could
keep an eye on his cobbler's shop was safer than wandering across the
countryside to God knows where. As he said, `We're staying put. The
last exodus we saw led straight to hell.'
That afternoon Missak and I pushed the handcart up the hill on the
sidewalk past our neighbors - French from the Auvergne and other rural
provinces, along with Armenians, Greeks, and Eastern European Jews who
had flocked to France for its promised liberties, and all of them
looking for employment in Belleville's factories, shoemaking ateliers,
and tailoring workshops. We wended our way though half a dozen
languages as street vendors and their customers engaged in commerce at
the end of the workday. As the war moved ever closer, most of the
residents of Belleville chose not to join the mass flight from the
city.
My brother and I made a number of trips up the five flights to our
apartment, where we deposited the provisions at my Auntie Shakeh's
feet. She stood in our front hall anxiously wringing her hands. While
Missak went to return the hand truck, I climbed on the stool to put
the sugar on the top shelf, as my mother had instructed. Next my aunt
and I dragged the sacks of bulgur from the front hall to the bedroom
that we shared. With much effort, we wedged two of them under my bed
and the other two under hers.
`That's a lot of bulgur.' My aunt wiped perspiration from her face
with a hankie.
`Enough to last until we won't be able to stand the sight of it on our
plates,' I said.
`Don't talk like that, Maral. We will be grateful for every bit.' My
aunt's tone was uncharacteristically severe.
Missak stumbled back in, panting under the weight of more packages,
having made his final trip up the five flights of stairs with my
mother at his heels. My father arrived just behind her.
`Do you feel better now?' my father asked my mother.
She nodded. `I found some more rice, and I bought machine needles,
hand needles, and three dozen spools of thread. But I know there's
something I've forgotten.'
`The animals,' my brother said.
`What animals?' my mother asked.
`You know, the pairs of animals two by two,' Missak answered.
My mother waved him away with a toss of her hand. `Talk to me in two
months, Mr. Wiseguy.'
That night my mattress, which usually dipped slightly in the middle,
hit up against the hard bulk under my bed. I turned from side to side,
trying to find a position that felt less as though I were lying on top
of a boulder. I slept fitfully, waking a number of times in the night
worrying about the sacks of bulgur that seemed in the dark as sinister
as carcasses. Sometime towards morning I dreamed that I was standing
over a cooking pot someone had left on the stove in the kitchen. I
watched a bubbling lamb and tomato stew that rose and rose until, to
my horror, it overflowed the pot and like scalding lava spread over
the kitchen floor.
***
Ten days later when the Germans marched down the Rue de Belleville,
Missak and I watched through the slats of the closed blinds of the
Kacherians' apartment, on the third floor of a building two blocks
>From ours. Missak; his best friend Zaven; Zaven's brother Barkev; and
I were crowded around one window, while Mr. and Mrs. Kacherian with
ten-year-old Virginie between them were at the other.
As the first tank rolled down the hill, none of us breathed. The tanks
were followed by armored trucks and behind the trucks came tall German
soldiers in black uniforms, their boot heels hammering the
cobblestones in cadence. When Zaven leaned toward the window for a
better view, his shoulder pressed against mine. I had never been so
near to him before. I glanced at him sideways, so close that I could
see the beads of perspiration on his temple. I stayed perfectly still,
prolonging the contact between us, and wondering if he felt what I
did. When I noticed that his older brother Barkev was staring at me, I
was ashamed. I quickly turned to peer through the slats at the columns
of troops.
Suddenly Virginie exclaimed, `How handsome they are!'
Her father, who never raised a hand to his children, unthinkingly
slapped her face. `Handsome? They are the Angels of Death.'
***
At dinner that evening, my mother said, `You two have no consideration
for anyone else. How do you think we felt when we realized you were
gone?'
My brother said, `We only went two blocks to the Kacherians.'
`Only two blocks? You could go two steps at a time like this and have
disaster fall on you,' my mother said. `I know you think you are a
grown man because you have a few wisps to shave, but let me remind you
that you are sixteen years old, and your sister is even younger.'
My brother rolled his eyes.
`And it's done?' Auntie Shakeh asked.
`Not a shot fired,' my father answered. `Paris is an open city. I
couldn't see the Germans from the shop, but I heard the boots. That's
a sound you will never forget.'
And the sound of those boots reverberated in my head for months and
then for years, and sometimes even still. This is the story of how we
lived the war, and how I found my husband.
by Nancy Kricorian
http://www.armenianweekly.com/2013/03/08/all-the-light-there-was-chapter-i/
March 8, 2013
The Armenian Weekly features Chapter I of Nancy Kricorian's latest
novel, All the Light There Was. The novel will be released on March
12, 2013. All the Light There Was is the story of an Armenian's
family's struggle to survive the Nazi occupation of Paris in the
1940s. To pre-order, click here.
All the Light There Was is the story of an Armenian's family's
struggle to survive the Nazi occupation of Paris in the 1940s.
By the time my brother and I arrived at Donabedian's Market, our
mother was waiting on the sidewalk outside the shop, having
commandeered the grocer's wooden handcart, which was loaded with
gunnysacks of bulgur, net bags of onions, liter tins of olive oil,
along with miscellaneous brown paper parcels tied up with red string.
>From behind the plate glass window, Baron Donabedian waved to us as he
and his assistant were busily ringing ups sales. Half the
neighborhood's housewives had joined the effort to empty his shelves.
`Missak,' my mother said, `you and your sister take this cart home. I
have more errands to run. Maral, help your brother carry everything up
the stairs.'
My brother asked, `What's all this?'
My mother said, `Food.'
`Right,' he answered. `Are we starting a restaurant?'
`Don't be smart,' she said as she tugged at the sacks on the bottom,
checking that the pyramid of goods was securely settled on the cart.
`How did you pay?' I asked.
She shrugged. `The money in the cracker tin.'
My brother and I exchanged glances.
As long as I could remember, at the end of each week my mother had
climbed the step stool in our tiny kitchen to put coins and small
bills into the gold and red cracker tin on the top shelf of the
cupboard. She was saving to buy an electric sewing machine that would
replace the ancient and venerable Singer pedal machine she used to do
piecework as a vest maker. She had a newspaper advertisement showing
the different electric models, one mounted on extravagant marble, one
with an elegant sewing table, and the one she had set her heart on,
which was a simple black model on wood that came in a leather-covered
carrying case. She coveted the small electric light affixed to the
body of the machine.
My mother said briskly, `After you take everything upstairs, Missak,
you return the cart to Donabedian as soon as possible. Maral, put the
spices in the jars, and the sugar on the top shelf. The rest goes
wherever you and Auntie Shakeh find space.'
That was how our war began. It didn't start with blaring newspaper
headlines announcing a pending invasion, nor was it signaled by the
terrifying drone of warplanes overhead. Our war commenced that
afternoon when my mother stockpiled groceries so that, no matter what
the war might bring, her family would have something to eat.
***
As the trickle of people fleeing Paris turned into a torrent, my
father decided we would remain in our apartment in Belleville, an
eastern district that at the time still retained some of its character
as an outlying village. Schools across the city were closed and at the
order of the authorities, children were being bused out of town to
safety. Many stores were shuttered, and their owners loaded cars and
streamed towards the peripheral exits. My father wagered, however,
that staying where we had a roof over our heads and where he could
keep an eye on his cobbler's shop was safer than wandering across the
countryside to God knows where. As he said, `We're staying put. The
last exodus we saw led straight to hell.'
That afternoon Missak and I pushed the handcart up the hill on the
sidewalk past our neighbors - French from the Auvergne and other rural
provinces, along with Armenians, Greeks, and Eastern European Jews who
had flocked to France for its promised liberties, and all of them
looking for employment in Belleville's factories, shoemaking ateliers,
and tailoring workshops. We wended our way though half a dozen
languages as street vendors and their customers engaged in commerce at
the end of the workday. As the war moved ever closer, most of the
residents of Belleville chose not to join the mass flight from the
city.
My brother and I made a number of trips up the five flights to our
apartment, where we deposited the provisions at my Auntie Shakeh's
feet. She stood in our front hall anxiously wringing her hands. While
Missak went to return the hand truck, I climbed on the stool to put
the sugar on the top shelf, as my mother had instructed. Next my aunt
and I dragged the sacks of bulgur from the front hall to the bedroom
that we shared. With much effort, we wedged two of them under my bed
and the other two under hers.
`That's a lot of bulgur.' My aunt wiped perspiration from her face
with a hankie.
`Enough to last until we won't be able to stand the sight of it on our
plates,' I said.
`Don't talk like that, Maral. We will be grateful for every bit.' My
aunt's tone was uncharacteristically severe.
Missak stumbled back in, panting under the weight of more packages,
having made his final trip up the five flights of stairs with my
mother at his heels. My father arrived just behind her.
`Do you feel better now?' my father asked my mother.
She nodded. `I found some more rice, and I bought machine needles,
hand needles, and three dozen spools of thread. But I know there's
something I've forgotten.'
`The animals,' my brother said.
`What animals?' my mother asked.
`You know, the pairs of animals two by two,' Missak answered.
My mother waved him away with a toss of her hand. `Talk to me in two
months, Mr. Wiseguy.'
That night my mattress, which usually dipped slightly in the middle,
hit up against the hard bulk under my bed. I turned from side to side,
trying to find a position that felt less as though I were lying on top
of a boulder. I slept fitfully, waking a number of times in the night
worrying about the sacks of bulgur that seemed in the dark as sinister
as carcasses. Sometime towards morning I dreamed that I was standing
over a cooking pot someone had left on the stove in the kitchen. I
watched a bubbling lamb and tomato stew that rose and rose until, to
my horror, it overflowed the pot and like scalding lava spread over
the kitchen floor.
***
Ten days later when the Germans marched down the Rue de Belleville,
Missak and I watched through the slats of the closed blinds of the
Kacherians' apartment, on the third floor of a building two blocks
>From ours. Missak; his best friend Zaven; Zaven's brother Barkev; and
I were crowded around one window, while Mr. and Mrs. Kacherian with
ten-year-old Virginie between them were at the other.
As the first tank rolled down the hill, none of us breathed. The tanks
were followed by armored trucks and behind the trucks came tall German
soldiers in black uniforms, their boot heels hammering the
cobblestones in cadence. When Zaven leaned toward the window for a
better view, his shoulder pressed against mine. I had never been so
near to him before. I glanced at him sideways, so close that I could
see the beads of perspiration on his temple. I stayed perfectly still,
prolonging the contact between us, and wondering if he felt what I
did. When I noticed that his older brother Barkev was staring at me, I
was ashamed. I quickly turned to peer through the slats at the columns
of troops.
Suddenly Virginie exclaimed, `How handsome they are!'
Her father, who never raised a hand to his children, unthinkingly
slapped her face. `Handsome? They are the Angels of Death.'
***
At dinner that evening, my mother said, `You two have no consideration
for anyone else. How do you think we felt when we realized you were
gone?'
My brother said, `We only went two blocks to the Kacherians.'
`Only two blocks? You could go two steps at a time like this and have
disaster fall on you,' my mother said. `I know you think you are a
grown man because you have a few wisps to shave, but let me remind you
that you are sixteen years old, and your sister is even younger.'
My brother rolled his eyes.
`And it's done?' Auntie Shakeh asked.
`Not a shot fired,' my father answered. `Paris is an open city. I
couldn't see the Germans from the shop, but I heard the boots. That's
a sound you will never forget.'
And the sound of those boots reverberated in my head for months and
then for years, and sometimes even still. This is the story of how we
lived the war, and how I found my husband.